The end of the

year 2010....

Christmas has come and gone, the year 2010 is ending...
Time sure pass don't you think? not long before, i remembered me in camp on christmas eve, doing guard duty and now, it is the year 2010's end.

Looking back, it has been quite an eventful year.. but after all, which year isn't. But then again, I can't for my life, review the past year.

But i digress.

The year is ending and next year promises to be better, every year is.

Event for the year? ORD! and university i hope.

And I guess i should start committing myself into some resolutions. I don't usually do because I rarely (NEVER!) keep them. But it is a thought, hmmm....
Perhaps one thing i want to do is to get my japanese right
But it is so difficult!!!!!!!! SIGH!
But it is always all talk and no work :(
Same as my fitness! hmmm...


Few days past, Grace went to port dickson and had a time of her life! leaving me to sulk in one corner as i wasted the days of my off/leave (FEEL GUILTY BA!)
But she brought back 3in1 white coffee and my! it was a big satchel and it does taste great!
No weird nescafe coffee "roasted" smell... not so sweet, foamy... hmmm~~

Well, next year, I hope to go Phuket with her! yeah! something to look forward to! :) :)

Next year..
Next year...

2 years and counting...

Hey all!

Just an update, Nov 30th was the official 2 years anniversary with grace! WOOTS!

We had a very simple celebration :) just a dinner and all...

but the night before, we tried out some javanese massage! not bad! hahah!!!

I recieved from her handmade ginger breadmens! but the most thoughtful thing of all was a handmade book detailing events of our lives ever since our first year.

The thought that she had started the book then and studiously updated it... sweet :)

reading the book brought me briefly down memory lane, the times we had, both high and low.

The high we keep, the low we improve and work towards our next year :)

Love you my dear!

What the future has for me...

Soooo.....

I have been wondering lately what I am going to do next time.........

Teacher? Police officer(yeah, recent addition), or run of the mill regular office going boy?

HRMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Will be applying for the physical proficiency test next month for march.... I have to pass for entry to NIE degree for PE (so they say). So I will have to start training! YYOOOSSHH! I have enough time! (I hope)...

If I fail, I would just grab a regular normal degree and probably sign up as a senior police officer lol!

Either way, been thinking a lot about what i would do after army... I would lose my monthly "allowance" of $800.... what would I live on? perhaps a part time job? but what should I do? What can I do? HMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Next question... where should I go for my ORD trip??? Phuket? HK? Taiwan!?

SO MUch deCISIONS!!!!!!!!!!!

haha!

*think think think*

Oh, and...

tutu is my beloved cutie!

Assets

ASEAN kendo tournament has just been concluded, there was so many exciting matches! so much so that i lost my voice cheering on day one in the woman's matches haha!

Overall, the competition was extremely intense, with daphne winning 1st place individuals and the girls winning the first place in team. Guys were equally good, glen, the underdog!, won 2nd place and team A managed a 2nd runner up.

But that aside, i chalked up a pretty miserable performance. 2 lost 1 draw. I don't really believe it is the competition but rather a personal thing. It is totally different to compete with people outside your country and be exposed to judges with different perspective that I am used to. But the loses made me think of various issues...

Consistency.

I feel that throughout the years, my kendo has been pretty inconsistent... that fighting for a point doesn't neccessarily mean attacking more but perhaps means fighting harder. Though the line is blur, but being too excited and just going for it is perhaps not a clever thing to do. A calm mind, a stable body and a cut that is worthy of a point is perhaps more important. And when you are a point down, focusing more on these is more important than perhaps chionging all the way... hmmm....

more things to work on....

anyway, yesterday night was crazy!

with senseis getting drunk, we were also getting a little tipsy.

When hasebe sensei is drunk, he really is funny! like some japanese game show host haha!

"WHO AM I!?!?!?!"

"COOOAACCHH!!"

hahaha! really a night to remember. must more interesting than last ASEAN's sayonara party. but maybe it is because of the location it is held.

On another note, had a talk with one of the seniors and agreed that nyp kendo seriously needs some perking up... hmm....

Am I in Malaysia?

Hmm...
Blogging in aust now... managed to steal a comp for awhile..hoho..
A thing about this place... it feels like Singapore (minus the super cold nights) smell like singapore... looks like singapore... but it is not!

I haven't seen a single kangaroo at all lah! wth!!!! others had already seen their share of kangaroos but me.... mei you yuan fen...

Makes me feel like the plane made one round around SG and landed in Malaysia for the exercise...

Anyway, just finished ATEC this morning.. hohoho! now shake leg for awhile den pack for some R&R... heard they planned a hiking trip for us =\=\

but seriously, i rather be home....

cant wait to return!
but I have to get back to kendo training..omg.. I can really gain weight over here... during one of the exercises.... my boss came to me and said " I think you gained weight " !!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AKT is round the corner

and someone is waiting for me back home...

I am on a jetplane...

I dont know when i will be back again~~~

okay, actually I do, 17 oct...

tmr, i shall fly off to aust to see some kangaroo and eat some dust. oh well, i never heard of anyone gaining weight eating dust riiggghhtttt?

haha, but i guess the worst thing of all is, i have to leave this pink furry ball behind! TSK!

haha

wait for me to come back okay??? it will be all over soon

to all the rest of the world,

i will be on a jetplane...

i will be back on the 17th

tata!

don't miss me! haha

A good month...?

WOOOAaaaaAAhh!!

after 10 years.... my house... HAS A HEATER!!!

my bathing time has been increased by a 400%!

I now enjoy LONGER, BETTER, SHIOK-ER bath!

next... my 32GB ipod touch HAS ARRIVED!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOO!!

now i can spam my 3 shows inside! and watch in camp!!

wahaha! but i need a new ear piece.... (amanda! the ear piece for xmas was too short! haha!)

and and and i need a wall charger!!!!!!!!!

oh my oh my!

expenses are going up up up up up!

hmmm.....

PE teacher!!

Recently did a bit more in-depth research about being a PE teacher.
okay, so i know i need to do some physical test thingy...
but agility run <15s, cartwheels etc etc! omg!!!!

Gosh, i wonder how the fat ones get in! haha!
but seriously, they did claim that even if i fail, it will just impact the chances greatly
but dont know ba.
lets just see...

The future....?

I have been thinking a bit... I had always wanted to be a PE teacher since sec 3.. but maybe it is too naive to constrain myself with that one occupation..
after all, a big belly isn't going to help right? T^T


That aside, i still want to be in a teaching career...so i was thinking of other possibilities..but what?
I am too afraid to teach english (and seriously, it has been deteriorating from lack of proper use) and maths!? NO WAY!?
anyway, found out one of my guys here, even though he has MOE scholarship and a place in NTU? i think, teaching maths, he is going to try for cambridge! way to go man!
where would i be i wonder...



And my jap.. my gosh.... i am so desperate i am turning to online help! haha
online quiz and all which i just found... quite tough though...my brain is too lazy to work *sigh*...

furthermore, been trying to read jap comics my bro bought when he stayed in japan.. OMG! i kept flipping the dictionary for almost every word..... took me so long to finish one frame! i only hope that when i reread next time (I will!) i will remember all the words... ... ... ... but as of now..i am not very sure i would...


on a lighter note,
this coming sat i will be going to BATAMM~~ with who?
want to guess?
small, white, furry... YES! A COTTON BUD!
no la, actually it is with tutu
haha! going for 2 days 1 night... aim? MASSAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no much time to do anything else really..maybe walk by the beach?
hmmm
but it is last minute la
no time to utilise my leave adequately
haha! my use those leave before the end of the year else all gone le!!!



Saturday~ saturday~~~~~

*Warning*

Errr..... bloody?
but... haha!

*Warning*

Men in shorts, I waive off any liability derived directly or indirectly from watching the video.

but... can I have them at our wedding? :)

Commitment?

So i got thinking about my Japanese classes.

I can't wait to be able to sit down and read the books that are on the shelves now, tantalizing morsels of literature waiting to enter my minndd!!

But I wonder, how much commitment am I, or am i just paying lip service, letting money paid and lessons attended be a measure of my willingness to learn a language.

I really need to put more emphasis on the subject... least I find myself merely throwing money to catch a mirage.

Hmmm...

but how?

Anyway, I found this very nice video!
Enjoy :)

NOOOOOoooooo~~~~

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yoh! i am back to this blog. Its been a while since i last blogged! haha
nearly a month already. and it is not because i dont want to blog, but rather i dont have the time, opportunity and most importantly, INSPIRATION~!

BUT!!!!! my lao ban niang ask me to blog so.. m(T^T)m ... see, hao ke lian de zai type.
oh well
anyway
i just got letter from NTU, guess what? YEAHHHHH!!!! I NEVER GOT SELECTED - AGAIN!
haha
expected la, 3.0 gpa, no appraisal, sure DIE!
so now i dont know what to do :(
maybe go private?
dad been bugging me to check out aust universities fees... but cannooott!! i go le, who take care of the rabbit at home???? haha! but also very exp!!!!!!!!
but their courses are very comprehensive... a mark of a matured sports culture! not like singapore .
anyway. worst come to worst.... go NIE lor! liao bu qi!!!! say until so easy..later they also reject me :'(
sigh! having a degree has become a norm in the society! majority of them have it!!!!
and most of the JC people can get a place! sigh! burn them!!!!!!

okay, i must relax

anyway, talking about relaxing, my work, i found, has made me more TENSE! FRUSTRATED! ANNGGRRRRYYYYYYY~~~
Retarded people keep making me do redundant things. even beyond my scope of work! which, i may add, is quite fuzzy anyway. But must relax! that guy has a SOCIAL DISORDER (really!), so yea, can't really blame him..riigghhhtt???
haha
oh wellss!!!!

today is mothers day!

Opportunities

Just recently my brother put another option for further education into my mind : Overseas.
Yeah, the thought of traveling vast distances to another culture, alone, mugging for a foreign degree.
It sounds good... there are so much more degrees in sports available in places such as Australia for a price....
Sports science.... human movement.... sports education.. etc etc etc. Plenty!
As such, i am giving very serious thoughts to this option in hopes of a better future...
but of course, you have a trade in..you leave the comfort of your home, place upon yourself a higher expectation (hey, you can't really just give up or get lousy grades.. you have to look at your parents in the eye and say "i did it!" and not "i just passed") and perhaps most importantly, leave your loved ones behind.
Though someone said that if it is possible, she would follow me there, which would greatly affect the decision to go anot. But i guess it is not as simple as that.
thus i shall wait out my options first before truly exploring this.

Btw, someone is going to taiwan soon. i wish i was going!!! SOBS!!
lucky yaya!! ROAR

Can i have the cake and eat it too

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm............
I am thinking of something meaningful, something... to discuss or better understand... but i know not how to put it.
You have 3 choices of cakes and a dessert served every so often, you only have 3 plates.
Cake A cake B cake C and dessert D.
Each plate has but space for one thing, and therein lies the problem, you want ALL.
But you love cake A, it is the best, it is like...your life blood! so delicious, so tempting... you can't hope to live without it and it fills every dream you have in your life..... you need cake A so damn hell you are going to have cake A in at least one of your plate!
Cake B and C... well... not that important...but it is something you want. You wont die without it, but you really would prefer having it time and again...
and D, well, it is rare...so you try to take a little of it every time.
So you are greedy... but how? you want cake A, ideally, cake A fills 3 plate..but you know that you want other cakes too! though they are less important... hmmm
AH! i wish i have more plates, but too bad... you dont!
so what do you do?

There is a need to set a perspective. What you want more - no, what you need first. Every so often in a person's life, we are found standing in the middle of the crossroad of choice. A, B, or C. Be it in the most menial of work, such as.... guessing an answer in an MCQ, or life and death where what you choose matters the most. But in choosing, we tend to sacrifice. But we are human, we are greedy. That drives us, we greed for knowledge, we greed for material wealth, we greed for emotions, love, attention, fame, passion etc. So we don't want to sacrifice. To the point where sometimes, we stubbornly put squeeze the things we need just so we can fill it in with things we want - much like how people put less ice so there is more coke in the cup.
And you like an ah beng in the void deck, you wonder.... how a?
The noble answer, politically correct and practiced, i feel, by a mere minority in the world. Set the eye on nothing but one. Head to the one and only choice and let all others be but insect bites, irritating, unimportant.
That things, you tell yourself, would be the thing i need. And it needs courage. It needs the stubborn fact that you must steel your heart against all other choices, tempting it maybe.
So, cake A B C? D?
It is a question that i find myself asking, even when i had made a choice that i know is wrong. But i make no pretense, i am selfish. But am i wrong? i feel that i am. why? because i questioned myself. A choice, made with a full commitment, has no rooms for questions. It is a focal point of your will and judgement, skirting almost near to fool-hardy stubborness.
Human? is it an excuse? or a rightful reason for selfishness?
Can i smoke and be healthy? can i jump and not fall? can i die and yet live?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..................
Can i not trade what i need for most with what i want? can i have the steel to put away all else and remain focused?

on a lighter note...
Just last week, grace spent money liao... not bad la, she tahan'ed for like, 2 weeks? haha
clap clap clap!!!!!!!!!!!
there is hope for the world!!!!!!!

jia you o! den next time we wont become pok liao (rather i wont become pok T^T)

Happy (early) birthday to me....

So, the time comes again, where i grow one year older, and non the less younger... :(

But, the good thing is, i celebrated this year's (early) birthday with a certain RABBIT!!!!!!!!!

woooooooo~~~~~~~ the best part is, i got a SUPER DUPER DUPER BIG PRESENT!

imagine, stepping out of the taxi (she picked me up in a taxi after my japanese class), asked to go behind to retrieve something and VOLIA! A SUPER BIG BOX!!

ooommmgg~~~

anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... lets see the things i have~

Massager, wang wang (rationed by my dear girl to one pack a month, since this is the end of the month already, i have already finished one! WOO), a adidas wrist err...giap giap trainer la, spongebob pencil box (yay!) with 3xpen and a towel~~~~~~~~

Look! i am drunk with presents! Hee~ oh, and notice the dog! hahahaha cool idea man.

But let me introduce the best present i was given...

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After that, we went to orchard to gai gai~ i bought for myself 2 krusty krab's shirt! but then i was tempted to buy more spongebob tees but they are so expensive! made me kinda regret getting 2 shirts (did i mention same design different color too?). she got herself a cardigan~ hahah fretting over it for so long before buying, girls~ still say what, not going to spend money in the near future, pfftttt... lets see how long it lasts!

anyway, we headed to IPPUDO! for awesome ramen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you guys should go there! good man~~ kinda exp though...

pics~

she and me~

and what we ordered!! YUM!

look at the eggg~~ salivates~

dont look down on this dish, it is like 12 bucks okay!?

Yup, that sums up my yesterday. it had been a gooood day~~~~~~ yipeeee

oh! here is a vid of us! ahahaah!!! errr, you would have to tilt your head to see it well~

Lazy

mg, i am so lazy... it is now 10pm, i just got off from hospital attachment an hour ago..i should be running, but my leg hurts from the standing... but maybe it is just an excuse

it is late, if i run, i might not get enough rest for tml's training.

i am screwed.

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yeah

cool right? anyway, dont be decieved. lol

YIONKS!

Oh no!! *frantically wipes off dust from my blog*

SO DUSTY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay seriously, i am 1. lazy to blog 2.have no inspiration to blog and 3. lazy to blog

did i repeat 1 and 3?

yeah i did

BORING!

okay anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy............

lately i am quite desperate to get a CUPBOARD!!!!!!! omg! i thought they are like >50 bucks because come on, it is just a stupid shelf right? but NOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooo it is all so expensive!! SOBS! but i did manage to pick out one SUPER UGLY but cheaper D.I.Y ones which requires you to pick what you need (a.k.a yong tau foo) and assemble them. but someone kept getting splinter pricks that i don't think it was safe anymore so BOOYAH!, i am still here, shelf-less....

another point i want to rant about - KENDO! you know, i sometimes feel that last time i more siao about it than now leh, now i am like...really enjoying it... i mean, yah la, i enjoyed it last time too but... last time was kinda like an obsession! all the books! OMG! but good investment btw, not complaining. but now i hardly go online and oogle at por- i mean, kendo videos and the books at the small pathetic space i had cleared for myself is just there, collecting more dust (though occasionally i do refer back to it okay! good read! even though i no nuts about what it says!!!). I wonder will i be ever that crazy about kendo anymore, but i kinda like it this way.. just that sometimes it does get so addictive and the drive to improve more and more is so strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am like what? just at the foot of the mountain in terms of understanding the art! nods

and oh, 3rd point! JAPANESE CLASS! omg, i seriously SERIOUSLY need to find some way to get immersed in the language. Ie. GET AN ITOUCH! and ya, grace! i know you will say * nah return your itouch * BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~ this is like an excuse to get a NEW ITOUCH TOO! but it is sooo expensive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need more money~!! money money hoom money hoom! i want one with BIGGER SPACE! so i can put MOVIES and MUSIC in it!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHAHAHA!!!

i feel that without it, i will always be revolving around what i have learnt in class..which is definately not a good thing.. must break out of the cage, get exposed more and increase my terrible terrible vocab and one day, i might just be reading novels! *cant wait*

did i mention that army makes you fat? OMG! i am SOOO FAT NOW! seriously, i am incubating a man-boob on my chest :'( my gods! i cant believe ever since sec 3 that i would grow such an obsence body altering anatomy. i really need to run but i am SO LAZY! and seriously, i dont think i have much of time. On top of that, my stupid warts been giving me so much problem i could just wish i tore my skin open and dig out the flesh around the area!

i need to do some weight management!! can't wait till i get out of army then start doing something... i will DIE i tell you! fat fat fat fat fat! ARMY MAKES YOU GROW FAT!!! to think i used to think i would lose some weight in there sob.

and I CAN'T SAVE MONEY! me and grace planned to go overseas after i ORD, but i need like super a lot of money la, cos paying for me and her + going disneyland etc...but after calculating, the best i can save is like 4k after i ORD, that is not including extra expenses!!!!

i feel that at this current rate.... i would only be able to save what? 2.5? k...sob.. dont kill me grace! i will go rob a bank or something... ...

and i think this blog needs a revamp..damn bloody boring.. and i need to be not-lazy enough to start hunting pics to spam into the blog...

OH SHIT! MY JAP PHOTOS!!! dammit!!!! i think it is easier to spam in on facebook, so i think i might spam it someday, SORRY GUYS (and gals)

Woah!

i found this hot link full of babes~~~ ^^ >> woooot~

Welcome 2010

HEeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyy

first post of 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, yeah, you know i haven been updating this blog for a long time.... well not because i am lazy (okay, i am but...)... but because i really dont have much time to sit down and think of what to write!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which is also why i haven uploaded the STUPID JAPAN TRIP PHOTOS! okay i promise soon i will upload on facebook, i think it is easier right???? hmmmm....

sorry guys! sorry i am lazy!!!!!!! but you know me la, so i think you all will forgive me write!??! *shui wang wang eyes O.O*

okayyyy soooo.... i think i really need to exercise!! but NO TIME! i am getting SOOOO FATTT!! OMG! give me a few more months of this...i am going to develop man boobs. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.................................................................................................................................

on a lighter note, i have started to restart my japanese class... not as scary as i thought... but okay, we shall see okay? i will try my best! PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha

okay, so resolution for the new year? NO RESOLUTION! i find i always 1.forget 2.never fulfil and 3.forget. so i think the best is not a resolution! *nods* that is the BEST resolution!!!!

Yesterday had an evening out with the babes *cough* and hunk *YAY, notice i did not include the "s" because apparently the only hunk is me ^^*. had fun as usual, but quite cheesed off about service standards at starbucks? i am currently even lazy to complain! zzzz

but anywayy...we exchanged presents! and haha, i bet mk loved his present, i bought it with him in mind! see i so kind. I on the other hand, recieved an earphone from amanda *YAY*! because i wanted a ear phone for so !@%!@@! long but i dont want to spend money on it because i aint that desperate, so this really solved one problem from me. THANKS AMANDA!

and oh ya, HEY CHRISTINE! congrats on getting OLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

wahahahah

okay, till the next time when i have more rubbish in my life to add, mata ne~