Opportunities

Just recently my brother put another option for further education into my mind : Overseas.
Yeah, the thought of traveling vast distances to another culture, alone, mugging for a foreign degree.
It sounds good... there are so much more degrees in sports available in places such as Australia for a price....
Sports science.... human movement.... sports education.. etc etc etc. Plenty!
As such, i am giving very serious thoughts to this option in hopes of a better future...
but of course, you have a trade in..you leave the comfort of your home, place upon yourself a higher expectation (hey, you can't really just give up or get lousy grades.. you have to look at your parents in the eye and say "i did it!" and not "i just passed") and perhaps most importantly, leave your loved ones behind.
Though someone said that if it is possible, she would follow me there, which would greatly affect the decision to go anot. But i guess it is not as simple as that.
thus i shall wait out my options first before truly exploring this.

Btw, someone is going to taiwan soon. i wish i was going!!! SOBS!!
lucky yaya!! ROAR

Can i have the cake and eat it too

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm............
I am thinking of something meaningful, something... to discuss or better understand... but i know not how to put it.
You have 3 choices of cakes and a dessert served every so often, you only have 3 plates.
Cake A cake B cake C and dessert D.
Each plate has but space for one thing, and therein lies the problem, you want ALL.
But you love cake A, it is the best, it is like...your life blood! so delicious, so tempting... you can't hope to live without it and it fills every dream you have in your life..... you need cake A so damn hell you are going to have cake A in at least one of your plate!
Cake B and C... well... not that important...but it is something you want. You wont die without it, but you really would prefer having it time and again...
and D, well, it is rare...so you try to take a little of it every time.
So you are greedy... but how? you want cake A, ideally, cake A fills 3 plate..but you know that you want other cakes too! though they are less important... hmmm
AH! i wish i have more plates, but too bad... you dont!
so what do you do?

There is a need to set a perspective. What you want more - no, what you need first. Every so often in a person's life, we are found standing in the middle of the crossroad of choice. A, B, or C. Be it in the most menial of work, such as.... guessing an answer in an MCQ, or life and death where what you choose matters the most. But in choosing, we tend to sacrifice. But we are human, we are greedy. That drives us, we greed for knowledge, we greed for material wealth, we greed for emotions, love, attention, fame, passion etc. So we don't want to sacrifice. To the point where sometimes, we stubbornly put squeeze the things we need just so we can fill it in with things we want - much like how people put less ice so there is more coke in the cup.
And you like an ah beng in the void deck, you wonder.... how a?
The noble answer, politically correct and practiced, i feel, by a mere minority in the world. Set the eye on nothing but one. Head to the one and only choice and let all others be but insect bites, irritating, unimportant.
That things, you tell yourself, would be the thing i need. And it needs courage. It needs the stubborn fact that you must steel your heart against all other choices, tempting it maybe.
So, cake A B C? D?
It is a question that i find myself asking, even when i had made a choice that i know is wrong. But i make no pretense, i am selfish. But am i wrong? i feel that i am. why? because i questioned myself. A choice, made with a full commitment, has no rooms for questions. It is a focal point of your will and judgement, skirting almost near to fool-hardy stubborness.
Human? is it an excuse? or a rightful reason for selfishness?
Can i smoke and be healthy? can i jump and not fall? can i die and yet live?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..................
Can i not trade what i need for most with what i want? can i have the steel to put away all else and remain focused?

on a lighter note...
Just last week, grace spent money liao... not bad la, she tahan'ed for like, 2 weeks? haha
clap clap clap!!!!!!!!!!!
there is hope for the world!!!!!!!

jia you o! den next time we wont become pok liao (rather i wont become pok T^T)

Happy (early) birthday to me....

So, the time comes again, where i grow one year older, and non the less younger... :(

But, the good thing is, i celebrated this year's (early) birthday with a certain RABBIT!!!!!!!!!

woooooooo~~~~~~~ the best part is, i got a SUPER DUPER DUPER BIG PRESENT!

imagine, stepping out of the taxi (she picked me up in a taxi after my japanese class), asked to go behind to retrieve something and VOLIA! A SUPER BIG BOX!!

ooommmgg~~~

anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... lets see the things i have~

Massager, wang wang (rationed by my dear girl to one pack a month, since this is the end of the month already, i have already finished one! WOO), a adidas wrist err...giap giap trainer la, spongebob pencil box (yay!) with 3xpen and a towel~~~~~~~~

Look! i am drunk with presents! Hee~ oh, and notice the dog! hahahaha cool idea man.

But let me introduce the best present i was given...

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After that, we went to orchard to gai gai~ i bought for myself 2 krusty krab's shirt! but then i was tempted to buy more spongebob tees but they are so expensive! made me kinda regret getting 2 shirts (did i mention same design different color too?). she got herself a cardigan~ hahah fretting over it for so long before buying, girls~ still say what, not going to spend money in the near future, pfftttt... lets see how long it lasts!

anyway, we headed to IPPUDO! for awesome ramen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you guys should go there! good man~~ kinda exp though...

pics~

she and me~

and what we ordered!! YUM!

look at the eggg~~ salivates~

dont look down on this dish, it is like 12 bucks okay!?

Yup, that sums up my yesterday. it had been a gooood day~~~~~~ yipeeee

oh! here is a vid of us! ahahaah!!! errr, you would have to tilt your head to see it well~

Lazy

mg, i am so lazy... it is now 10pm, i just got off from hospital attachment an hour ago..i should be running, but my leg hurts from the standing... but maybe it is just an excuse

it is late, if i run, i might not get enough rest for tml's training.

i am screwed.

anyway, lets talk about my hospital attachment! So on the first day **Medical-in-confidence** and then and then **Medical-in-confidence** SOOoooo **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence** **Medical-in-confidence**

yeah

cool right? anyway, dont be decieved. lol

YIONKS!

Oh no!! *frantically wipes off dust from my blog*

SO DUSTY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay seriously, i am 1. lazy to blog 2.have no inspiration to blog and 3. lazy to blog

did i repeat 1 and 3?

yeah i did

BORING!

okay anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy............

lately i am quite desperate to get a CUPBOARD!!!!!!! omg! i thought they are like >50 bucks because come on, it is just a stupid shelf right? but NOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooo it is all so expensive!! SOBS! but i did manage to pick out one SUPER UGLY but cheaper D.I.Y ones which requires you to pick what you need (a.k.a yong tau foo) and assemble them. but someone kept getting splinter pricks that i don't think it was safe anymore so BOOYAH!, i am still here, shelf-less....

another point i want to rant about - KENDO! you know, i sometimes feel that last time i more siao about it than now leh, now i am like...really enjoying it... i mean, yah la, i enjoyed it last time too but... last time was kinda like an obsession! all the books! OMG! but good investment btw, not complaining. but now i hardly go online and oogle at por- i mean, kendo videos and the books at the small pathetic space i had cleared for myself is just there, collecting more dust (though occasionally i do refer back to it okay! good read! even though i no nuts about what it says!!!). I wonder will i be ever that crazy about kendo anymore, but i kinda like it this way.. just that sometimes it does get so addictive and the drive to improve more and more is so strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am like what? just at the foot of the mountain in terms of understanding the art! nods

and oh, 3rd point! JAPANESE CLASS! omg, i seriously SERIOUSLY need to find some way to get immersed in the language. Ie. GET AN ITOUCH! and ya, grace! i know you will say * nah return your itouch * BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~ this is like an excuse to get a NEW ITOUCH TOO! but it is sooo expensive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need more money~!! money money hoom money hoom! i want one with BIGGER SPACE! so i can put MOVIES and MUSIC in it!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHAHAHA!!!

i feel that without it, i will always be revolving around what i have learnt in class..which is definately not a good thing.. must break out of the cage, get exposed more and increase my terrible terrible vocab and one day, i might just be reading novels! *cant wait*

did i mention that army makes you fat? OMG! i am SOOO FAT NOW! seriously, i am incubating a man-boob on my chest :'( my gods! i cant believe ever since sec 3 that i would grow such an obsence body altering anatomy. i really need to run but i am SO LAZY! and seriously, i dont think i have much of time. On top of that, my stupid warts been giving me so much problem i could just wish i tore my skin open and dig out the flesh around the area!

i need to do some weight management!! can't wait till i get out of army then start doing something... i will DIE i tell you! fat fat fat fat fat! ARMY MAKES YOU GROW FAT!!! to think i used to think i would lose some weight in there sob.

and I CAN'T SAVE MONEY! me and grace planned to go overseas after i ORD, but i need like super a lot of money la, cos paying for me and her + going disneyland etc...but after calculating, the best i can save is like 4k after i ORD, that is not including extra expenses!!!!

i feel that at this current rate.... i would only be able to save what? 2.5? k...sob.. dont kill me grace! i will go rob a bank or something... ...

and i think this blog needs a revamp..damn bloody boring.. and i need to be not-lazy enough to start hunting pics to spam into the blog...

OH SHIT! MY JAP PHOTOS!!! dammit!!!! i think it is easier to spam in on facebook, so i think i might spam it someday, SORRY GUYS (and gals)

Woah!

i found this hot link full of babes~~~ ^^ >> woooot~

Welcome 2010

HEeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyy

first post of 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, yeah, you know i haven been updating this blog for a long time.... well not because i am lazy (okay, i am but...)... but because i really dont have much time to sit down and think of what to write!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which is also why i haven uploaded the STUPID JAPAN TRIP PHOTOS! okay i promise soon i will upload on facebook, i think it is easier right???? hmmmm....

sorry guys! sorry i am lazy!!!!!!! but you know me la, so i think you all will forgive me write!??! *shui wang wang eyes O.O*

okayyyy soooo.... i think i really need to exercise!! but NO TIME! i am getting SOOOO FATTT!! OMG! give me a few more months of this...i am going to develop man boobs. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.................................................................................................................................

on a lighter note, i have started to restart my japanese class... not as scary as i thought... but okay, we shall see okay? i will try my best! PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha

okay, so resolution for the new year? NO RESOLUTION! i find i always 1.forget 2.never fulfil and 3.forget. so i think the best is not a resolution! *nods* that is the BEST resolution!!!!

Yesterday had an evening out with the babes *cough* and hunk *YAY, notice i did not include the "s" because apparently the only hunk is me ^^*. had fun as usual, but quite cheesed off about service standards at starbucks? i am currently even lazy to complain! zzzz

but anywayy...we exchanged presents! and haha, i bet mk loved his present, i bought it with him in mind! see i so kind. I on the other hand, recieved an earphone from amanda *YAY*! because i wanted a ear phone for so !@%!@@! long but i dont want to spend money on it because i aint that desperate, so this really solved one problem from me. THANKS AMANDA!

and oh ya, HEY CHRISTINE! congrats on getting OLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

wahahahah

okay, till the next time when i have more rubbish in my life to add, mata ne~