Recurring Theme

Hmm...

Sometimes I think I ain't made the right choice.

But I guess it is too late now, but it keeps revolving around in my head.

Need to make sure the door's out of my sight before I can admit to fate I guess.

Man, results... come out quickly!

Playground

Just the other day, while I was on the computer musing on what I should be doing next, I heard a sound. Familiar, nostalgic but not something I had heard for some time.

Children's laughter. Innocent squeals of joy that is so irritable yet sometimes vibrant with energy that only a child can exude.

I looked the the window, looking for the source of the laughter and saw a group of kids, watched over my maids, playing at the urban playground with the steel struts and rubber floors.

It hit me then, where my beloved sand pits, with see-saws and swings. With structures to climb into and laze within the circular confines? The answer was greeted with the carpark lots.

There used to be a time where kids run around those (I admit, dirty) playgrounds playing catching and what not. Often unsupervised or with the occasional parent. I remember being supervised by my Ah Por last time when I was young. The times where should would bring me down to play in the sand and even though I knew no kid around the block, the simple joy was enough. To build a sand castle or even sit on the swing.

Of course, the most memorable time was during the mooncake festival. Where that playground would be decorated with candles and children would run around with lanterns, both traditional and modern (You know, the one with the musics?).

I don't remember these happening around anymore.

Now I see the smooth and safe structures that reflect the growing society, I see more maids supervising the kids than parents, but most importantly I rarely hear the happy joyous laughter from the kids.

It makes me wonder, are the children of nowadays better off? With their modern gadgetry or us, with the rugged sand between our toes and the rough surfaces of which we climb while we enjoy the wind blowing through our hair...

Future

is so uncertain.

hoping i can work now though...

now that SIMglobal is not recognised...

but i still have to have a backdoor....

sigh!!!!!!!

ZHEN DE!

The below post is so totally written by me
It is 100% true and factual!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Anyway, I think I wont get a university placing in NTU/NIE or SMU :(

I will just wait for the I AM SORRY letter ba :(

Lets just hope SIM accepts me..else... Contract teaching? HMMMM....

Hi all....

My GF is super super cute!!!

Wont be able to find someone better than her already lorrr!!!

See? Pretty, beautiful features~ 3D face, long eye lashes. well defined body line. smart. never nag, good temper. forgiving. talk softly, never argues. never anyhow spend money. faithful. kind hearted. aiyaaaaa... everything is better than u! as easy as that!

See?? although i always say her bad stuff in front of my friends. but deep inside my heart... OHHH~~~ I knew she is the best... OH~~ she is an angel~~~

Pancake with Butter/syrup...

Dont you think they make a good combination?
Or perhaps mayonnaise with fish and chips, or chilli with fries...

Sometimes when I look next to me, and in my arms there snuggle this person that you feel such a unique connection to, I can't help but feel if it was just meant to be.
Fine we all have our minor disagreements, I mean, not everyone believe chilli goes well with fries (I do!). But in the end of the day, the feeling of contentment and the utter belief in the future makes it all worthwhile.

Just like a missing piece in a jigsaw puzzle...
Or a much needed candle in the dark..

Hee!
Love you!

Do you feel this way tooo??

:(

I am officially one year closer to death *Hooray*
Thank you all for the well wishes a. Haha.

Anyway, it just so happened that today there was a cohesion to go KUSHINBO! Free food for an hour! however, the food was not very spectacular lah. even though the medics ate as though there was no tomorrow (I suspect we ate more than all the other tables combined...).

Recently, grace has been mugging for exams and I am pei'ing her to mug haha! she is making it her mission to get as many benefits from mugging as possible from me! which i will gladly give PROVIDED SHE GET GOOD RESULTS LORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
But we shall see how a. she so stress nowdays! haha! next time it will be my turn. I will make sure to get as many benefits as i can also >:)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Haha!
Once again, it is the much awaiting and dreaded chinese new year!
why dreaded? well... BECAUSE OF THE SOCIALISING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But this year's chinese new year is not so lively bah, quite a number of people went overseas haha!

but nonetheless, got my ang pows... haven't opened it yet but.... I know sure less than 100 lah SAD!

btw, I PLAYED MAHJONG! Boohoohoo... virgin gambler haha
damn tough game.... have to analyse a lot.. have trouble keeping up but OH WELLS!!!!!!
wahahhaa!

Recently...

I have been quite sian.
you know ever since 2011 started, I haven't touch my PSP... working in the medical centre increased... and when there is nothing for me, i feel unrested, and when there is I feel over worked
my gosh!!!!

japanese lame commercials lols!

abit disturbing...


LOL BANANA!






LOL! E-HONDA! though the second one sounds a little dirty... and the 3 one is a little disturbing...









This is chinese... lol

Boring Sunday...

Okaaayy...
so I came to duty late so I can train this morning..
but damn...i am soooooo bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can just complain the whole day but I am going to do a short cut - "RANT! RANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANT"
Done.

Righto, year is 2011, did I post anything for this month? NOPES!
half a month to think of a post and all I am typing now is this rubbish??? HOHO!!!
For those who click/type the link to this blog, anticipating a very serious, thoughtful, or otherwise interesting blogpost... *Squeeaalss* YOU ARE DISAPPOINTED!!
HARHARHAR

Anyway,
Next week is the inaugural youth kendo tournament! I AM A YOUTH STILL (At least by competition rules standard...).
Don't feel like 2 years ago... but hey! it is going to be the first time I get to fight with mk and josh! harhar! so mk! better don get confined else I will confine your butt okay?

hrm!
Sometimes I wonder about a future in our dear country - Singapore.
Standard of living has increased so much in our nice little red dot that sometimes, I feel it giving me a rash!
Food prices are increasing, transport prices too... housing... weird people... etc... I mean,
It makes you feel kind of glad that at least one thing is not increasing right?
WAGES
(Pfft.)

Like how many of us is going to manage to get a job that pays you >$10,000 per month?
You know, I remember there used to be a time when i felt that Hey! $3,000 - 5,000 per month is not bad riiiiggghhhtttt.
It probably still be.
Of course you will be paying for your housing throughout our breathing living life....
maybe after still
perhaps your child's life as well
heck, pay in hell.
okay, joking (I hope!)

But who can get that kind of money once you start? of course you could ask for that amount if you entered a university...
hmmm
I wish I was more of a risk taker...then perhaps I might be good at playing with stocks(storks)...
There is where the money is... seriously...
Of course once you get burn, you burn in hell...

The end of the

year 2010....

Christmas has come and gone, the year 2010 is ending...
Time sure pass don't you think? not long before, i remembered me in camp on christmas eve, doing guard duty and now, it is the year 2010's end.

Looking back, it has been quite an eventful year.. but after all, which year isn't. But then again, I can't for my life, review the past year.

But i digress.

The year is ending and next year promises to be better, every year is.

Event for the year? ORD! and university i hope.

And I guess i should start committing myself into some resolutions. I don't usually do because I rarely (NEVER!) keep them. But it is a thought, hmmm....
Perhaps one thing i want to do is to get my japanese right
But it is so difficult!!!!!!!! SIGH!
But it is always all talk and no work :(
Same as my fitness! hmmm...


Few days past, Grace went to port dickson and had a time of her life! leaving me to sulk in one corner as i wasted the days of my off/leave (FEEL GUILTY BA!)
But she brought back 3in1 white coffee and my! it was a big satchel and it does taste great!
No weird nescafe coffee "roasted" smell... not so sweet, foamy... hmmm~~

Well, next year, I hope to go Phuket with her! yeah! something to look forward to! :) :)

Next year..
Next year...

2 years and counting...

Hey all!

Just an update, Nov 30th was the official 2 years anniversary with grace! WOOTS!

We had a very simple celebration :) just a dinner and all...

but the night before, we tried out some javanese massage! not bad! hahah!!!

I recieved from her handmade ginger breadmens! but the most thoughtful thing of all was a handmade book detailing events of our lives ever since our first year.

The thought that she had started the book then and studiously updated it... sweet :)

reading the book brought me briefly down memory lane, the times we had, both high and low.

The high we keep, the low we improve and work towards our next year :)

Love you my dear!

What the future has for me...

Soooo.....

I have been wondering lately what I am going to do next time.........

Teacher? Police officer(yeah, recent addition), or run of the mill regular office going boy?

HRMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Will be applying for the physical proficiency test next month for march.... I have to pass for entry to NIE degree for PE (so they say). So I will have to start training! YYOOOSSHH! I have enough time! (I hope)...

If I fail, I would just grab a regular normal degree and probably sign up as a senior police officer lol!

Either way, been thinking a lot about what i would do after army... I would lose my monthly "allowance" of $800.... what would I live on? perhaps a part time job? but what should I do? What can I do? HMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Next question... where should I go for my ORD trip??? Phuket? HK? Taiwan!?

SO MUch deCISIONS!!!!!!!!!!!

haha!

*think think think*

Oh, and...

tutu is my beloved cutie!

Assets

ASEAN kendo tournament has just been concluded, there was so many exciting matches! so much so that i lost my voice cheering on day one in the woman's matches haha!

Overall, the competition was extremely intense, with daphne winning 1st place individuals and the girls winning the first place in team. Guys were equally good, glen, the underdog!, won 2nd place and team A managed a 2nd runner up.

But that aside, i chalked up a pretty miserable performance. 2 lost 1 draw. I don't really believe it is the competition but rather a personal thing. It is totally different to compete with people outside your country and be exposed to judges with different perspective that I am used to. But the loses made me think of various issues...

Consistency.

I feel that throughout the years, my kendo has been pretty inconsistent... that fighting for a point doesn't neccessarily mean attacking more but perhaps means fighting harder. Though the line is blur, but being too excited and just going for it is perhaps not a clever thing to do. A calm mind, a stable body and a cut that is worthy of a point is perhaps more important. And when you are a point down, focusing more on these is more important than perhaps chionging all the way... hmmm....

more things to work on....

anyway, yesterday night was crazy!

with senseis getting drunk, we were also getting a little tipsy.

When hasebe sensei is drunk, he really is funny! like some japanese game show host haha!

"WHO AM I!?!?!?!"

"COOOAACCHH!!"

hahaha! really a night to remember. must more interesting than last ASEAN's sayonara party. but maybe it is because of the location it is held.

On another note, had a talk with one of the seniors and agreed that nyp kendo seriously needs some perking up... hmm....

Am I in Malaysia?

Hmm...
Blogging in aust now... managed to steal a comp for awhile..hoho..
A thing about this place... it feels like Singapore (minus the super cold nights) smell like singapore... looks like singapore... but it is not!

I haven't seen a single kangaroo at all lah! wth!!!! others had already seen their share of kangaroos but me.... mei you yuan fen...

Makes me feel like the plane made one round around SG and landed in Malaysia for the exercise...

Anyway, just finished ATEC this morning.. hohoho! now shake leg for awhile den pack for some R&R... heard they planned a hiking trip for us =\=\

but seriously, i rather be home....

cant wait to return!
but I have to get back to kendo training..omg.. I can really gain weight over here... during one of the exercises.... my boss came to me and said " I think you gained weight " !!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AKT is round the corner

and someone is waiting for me back home...

I am on a jetplane...

I dont know when i will be back again~~~

okay, actually I do, 17 oct...

tmr, i shall fly off to aust to see some kangaroo and eat some dust. oh well, i never heard of anyone gaining weight eating dust riiggghhtttt?

haha, but i guess the worst thing of all is, i have to leave this pink furry ball behind! TSK!

haha

wait for me to come back okay??? it will be all over soon

to all the rest of the world,

i will be on a jetplane...

i will be back on the 17th

tata!

don't miss me! haha

A good month...?

WOOOAaaaaAAhh!!

after 10 years.... my house... HAS A HEATER!!!

my bathing time has been increased by a 400%!

I now enjoy LONGER, BETTER, SHIOK-ER bath!

next... my 32GB ipod touch HAS ARRIVED!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOO!!

now i can spam my 3 shows inside! and watch in camp!!

wahaha! but i need a new ear piece.... (amanda! the ear piece for xmas was too short! haha!)

and and and i need a wall charger!!!!!!!!!

oh my oh my!

expenses are going up up up up up!

hmmm.....

PE teacher!!

Recently did a bit more in-depth research about being a PE teacher.
okay, so i know i need to do some physical test thingy...
but agility run <15s, cartwheels etc etc! omg!!!!

Gosh, i wonder how the fat ones get in! haha!
but seriously, they did claim that even if i fail, it will just impact the chances greatly
but dont know ba.
lets just see...

The future....?

I have been thinking a bit... I had always wanted to be a PE teacher since sec 3.. but maybe it is too naive to constrain myself with that one occupation..
after all, a big belly isn't going to help right? T^T


That aside, i still want to be in a teaching career...so i was thinking of other possibilities..but what?
I am too afraid to teach english (and seriously, it has been deteriorating from lack of proper use) and maths!? NO WAY!?
anyway, found out one of my guys here, even though he has MOE scholarship and a place in NTU? i think, teaching maths, he is going to try for cambridge! way to go man!
where would i be i wonder...



And my jap.. my gosh.... i am so desperate i am turning to online help! haha
online quiz and all which i just found... quite tough though...my brain is too lazy to work *sigh*...

furthermore, been trying to read jap comics my bro bought when he stayed in japan.. OMG! i kept flipping the dictionary for almost every word..... took me so long to finish one frame! i only hope that when i reread next time (I will!) i will remember all the words... ... ... ... but as of now..i am not very sure i would...


on a lighter note,
this coming sat i will be going to BATAMM~~ with who?
want to guess?
small, white, furry... YES! A COTTON BUD!
no la, actually it is with tutu
haha! going for 2 days 1 night... aim? MASSAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no much time to do anything else really..maybe walk by the beach?
hmmm
but it is last minute la
no time to utilise my leave adequately
haha! my use those leave before the end of the year else all gone le!!!



Saturday~ saturday~~~~~